I have to be honest enough with myself to admit that I may not know what the hell I'm talking about. It's no secret that by now I'm balls deep in several conspiracy theories, which is really just an honest description of what they are—theories of conspiracies—though a negative connotation has been created around this term by the media. The brain forms its habits and opinions about things by building neural pathways and then using these constructed short cuts to speed up the process of making decisions. The pathways are strengthened by reinforcement and new ones can be built as long as there aren't already others in the place it tries to build them. The bonds can be broken as well, but it is easier for the energy to flow in an established path. In this way, the only reality that exists is what is seen by the being observing it and you can bet that this world is perceived a little differently by everything alive in it. Right now, we are under the spell of a type of mass hypnosis which doesn't use any form of magic besides continuously telling us things that aren't true. This is just good business to some people, and you can certainly blame them for centuries of suffering and mass murder visited upon humanity, but even if it's the last thing they'll ever allow themselves to admit, all they ever wanted is the love and acceptance of their fellow humans. These are the people who secretly hated themselves enough that they could see no other way to get it than by theft. Life only travels in one general direction back to the source and they are the ones who are taking the longest route.
And so we are alive today in a world where majority rules and the most popular form of idea transmission is one that is filtered by what is profitable. Moving outside the generally accepted view of reality is an alien concept, and we'll all have to break this monster down piece by piece inside ourselves and carefully consider which parts can be kept and which are bad for us. The whole process can be more than a little disheartening, because invariably you have to go from a fully constructed reality to a laying a blank new foundation, and our only reason for doing this is a faint feeling that something is very wrong. It's not easy being out here, adrift with no compass, but when the consensus is in error, the only way to find new land is by being lost off the edge of the map. People can call us crazy, but shouted as it is from beneath the golden arches of the local mcdonald's, it is a great compliment.
Everything I've learned since falling down the rabbit hole has been treated with a combination of trust and disbelief, since there's a lot of disinformation floating around out there and what passes for science here is a poor method of confirming anything of real value. Occasionally I get to "see" things, which is really only the momentary lining up of facts in a pattern that conforms to the rules of life, and is most likely also related to how certain ideas "ring" of truth. If I hadn't "seen" the inevitable collapse of the system years ago, when this blog was still populated alternately by game reviews and masturbation jokes, I might've doubted it like I have any other idea I've encountered during my awakening. It was Paris Hilton that showed me the truth one night, of what is to become of the consumerist system. Here is a person who was really the next step in celebrities at the time, being famous only for being famous. Instead of a name, she got a cheap ad for a hotel. Of course we're a couple of generations past dear Paris already, and someone else had to step in after Britney Spears burned out in such spectacular fashion. We've been trapped here so long because they've found a way to sell diluted life and love back to us, but the name of the game is unregulated theft and things of real value have become too expensive to include in this world of mass production. We've finally run ourselves around in a complete circle, and the only step left, if you don't want to repeat the grade, is out.